I, Janice Phua, officially proclaim that, i'm in deep blood over TWILIGHT & EDWARDCULLEN@ROBERTPATTINSON & BELLASWAN@KRISTENSTEWART now.

3 times of the same movie in a week(my very first time of doing this)?!?! hell no. but yes! i'm yearning that all my blood to be sucked out by EDWARDCULLEN, very much!

crazy woman.

so i'm off to continue on my New Moon(it's been a while) and tomorrow i'll be seeing my Edward@Robert again, with dragonfly & bboy jj(probably)[what a weird combination]. muahahahaha.

Robert Pattinson the composer

I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

我在想 女人离不开不好的男人

是因为 她还爱着他?

不能没有他?

还是她习惯了他?

懒惰适应新的感情?

没有别的男人爱?

又或者是她太善良一直选择原谅他?

我这个人最讨厌别人一而再再而三的抓住我的弱处一直讲一直讲!!!

仆街!!!

人没有缺点的是吗?

你以为你很厉害啊?!

你讲一次我不认讲两次我嘛听咯!!

不用一直重复的是吗?

我知道你很厉害很自我!! 但是可以听一听我讲话吗?!

我也有尊严有面子也有脾气的!!!

可以不要每次一轮嘴的讲我的错不给我一点机会讲话吗?!?!

我不出声不代表我心里没有想你的建议!!!

我跟你讲过几千百万LIN次了 "给我机会讲话!!! 听我讲!!!"

仆街你是要把我逼到疯掉你才甘愿是吗?!?!

每一次让我在大庭广众面前破口大骂毫无仪态你很爽是吗?!?!

我真的很生气很生气很生气很生气很生气!!!

我感觉我随时都会心脏病爆发破血管死掉!!!

你根本就没有想过我的感受!!!

只会一直拿自己的theory套在别人的身上!!!

我知道你有很美好的前途会赚很多的钱很有百万富翁的mindset很聪明别人很笨很蠢!!!

可是你连最基本的尊重和体谅都不会!!!

别人体谅你是应该! 我就没有那个权利是吗?!

FUCK FUCK FUCK I HATE YOU!!!

你这种人为什么还会一直得到我的原谅?!?!

从以前到现在都是一样!!! 没有变过!!!

我真的是蠢到无可救药!!!

对你的慈悲就是对我自己残忍!!!

真正的快乐并不需要你一直拼命的去找寻

不需要任何目的 不带有任何心机

快乐就像我刚刚一个人坐在客厅吃着木瓜风扇在头上吹着微微的风日光灯不是很热的照在我的身上看着我最爱的星洲副刊听着弟弟的电脑播着的歌曲现在回到房间上我的网打我的网志看一下东西

快乐也像刚刚我的honey特地把我千呼万唤的hard disk远从selayang送到我的家门前顺便当埋我的exclusive technician帮我安装然后我很开心的看着extra的200GB插入我的宝贝电脑里再把我的宝贝drama collection移去那200GB里安心的筑起安乐窝

快乐其实很简单

简简单单没有任何的附加值 我的心充满欣喜

原来我也是可以这么快乐的  

3rd anniversary - trip to cameron highland.

it's been ages i didn't go up there to enjoy the fresh air and cold weather.

i love there so much, i felt so relaxed and delighted surrounding with cold air, flowers and love of my boy.

away from kl, the city of stress and fast beat, forget the depression and tension.

once i back here, there are only waves of deadlines and problems.

eww i miss cameron highland. (not with the dizzy road trip)

and the world with only two of us.

最近听音乐的口味换了

对嘻哈音乐的热情慢慢退了

但好听特别的还是喜欢

不喜欢电台泛滥播放的那些 烦死了

我爱上了摇滚乐 各种不同类型的

除了重金属摇滚和哥德式黑暗的以外 我都ok

尤其是女生唱摇滚 我更爱

酷毙了 我要做酷酷的女生 yeah

喜欢杨丞琳的最新专辑<半熟宣言>

因为感觉不再是那么的"可爱"了

其实我比较喜欢她的抒情歌

尤其是这张专辑有几首摇滚的 我更爱

成熟的感觉 我喜欢

也爱上了孙燕姿的歌 很out很奇怪我知道

但以前就只是觉得普普通通 听过就算 没特别的留意和喜欢

也许是因为以前的我很hiphop_speak吧 LOL

孙燕姿的rock songs i likey

其他的歌曲曲风也很多元化很丰富 good good

downloading her classic album "My Story, Your Song"

总共4CD 60首歌曲 yeah

期待期待 但速度很慢 气死

有这张专辑的人可以save给我吗?

刚刚从国家动物园回来

好多年没去了

动物很少了

天气热死了

RM15 骗钱呐

why it turns out so troublesome and miserable

i should be happy and free of depression shouldn't i

why it turns out so depressing

i hope this world could be simple and wonderful

why is it so difficult

faith can change the world

why don't you believe?

rules are dead people are alive

why we must follow the rules so deadly?

life isn't like what you have been told by the old generation

we could make the difference

good grade doesn't prove you worth the world

after graduate doesn't mean you have to work like robot

why human can't think out of frame?

why human must see to believe?

you are too dumb and numb if so

i believe to see

i hold my faith

i hate to explain

i hate to feel so dead

everything is so deadly boring

i love my boy friends

although i don't have a lot

but the only and two is more than enough

they are so adorable

(don't slap me yo, lengzai lengzai la)

feel so comfortable talking with them

although i didn't show up on my face

yet it's true

ok la i know my face is very boring

and sleepy

i don't know whether i should change it

but it's my trademark eh

how

i'm confused

i love b's place

got swimming pool

playground

light breeze

soft light

night view

and right people

=)

looking forward next yamcha session

话说今天学校有career fair, 我们 "昆虫小组" 前去查看

重点

莫名其妙的被招去填 recruit cabin crew 的表格

=.=

被说有潜质

只因为我的高度

开玩笑

我竟然只有157cm

我一直以为我有160cm的!!!

残酷的事实

让我心碎

:'(

我好矮喔!!!

但是

我竟然符合基本的条件

女生高度157cm或以上

哈哈

搞笑

而且昆虫小组的其他成员

竟然都是153 club!!!

哈哈哈哈

搞笑

我还是巨人一个

奇怪

想想

当个空中小姐其实也蛮不错嘛

可以飞来飞去

至少不用在地上爬

LOL

但是我的英文不是很dim

又不是很会游泳

又不漂亮

也不和蔼可亲

怎样

什么意见吗大家

空中小姐耶

一个女生梦寐以求却遥不可及的工作

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最近我都在背非常重的书包

有5kg吧

今天还差一点被压死

是时候取舍一些东西了

要不然我会变成高低肩膀

i have no idea what's wrong with me

my stomach is rolling since yesterday

toilet non-stop

and i think i am a paranoia cuz i search and pick up every single hair on the floor everyday

i have too little time but too many things to do

yet i'm blank

stare blankly on the screen

wandering in my room

want to sleep but somehow didn't

want to bounce but lazy

want to roar but orz

want to talk but so not me

want to take a road trip but anyone?

surfing around the world wide web

searching for some news

no point no point!

what the heck i'm talking about

i think i need meditation

yea so bye bye

今天是个好坏参半的一天

好的是终于能dating看戏

10 promises to my dog 真的很好看, 哭死了我

他让我独自一个人穿着痛死人的鞋在街上晃了一个小时半, 闷热的天气, 提着重重的东西, 而他在gym, 我脚趾长泡了  sob

晚餐好好吃, 谢谢你 =)

买了一套小女人的睡衣呢

还遇到了敏儿, 同一部电影, 同一个电影院, 同一个时间, 同一个地点, 同一个厕所, 真巧 ^^

坏的事就不用多说了, 为了Y生日的事

我都不懂what is so big deal?

有时候一个人的极端消极真的会让身边的人很难受

这一晚, 我很受不了

anyway happy 50th birthday to daddy!!!

今年未能为你做些什么, 真的很对不起

又这样过了一年, 坦白说我还蛮失败的不是吗

我会再加油的

alright alright it's freaking week 3 already, half semester gone.

seems like nothing was done and i have no idea about myself and my works.

gosh. am i back to the unpolished me again?

hell no. i want to be a better woman wei.

yo has done a day of production shooting, tv news eh.

hl's YB uncle, jalan loke yew, parliment opposition office, petaling street, pj sec14.

the weather is freaking hot! crazy.

i dropped the freaking mic stand into the freaking dirty disgusting black color oily longkang, shit.

Pending List -:

tv and radio news script

several episodes of taiwan drama

gossip girl

new moon

cleo mag

outdated happy sunday

my network

girl talk with jy

yam cha with boyfriends

shopping (birthday gift for ms sperma a.k.a. ladybird)

dating

昨晚我梦见了一个男生, 梦境很清楚.

他并不认识我, 但是我认识他.

他不在这里, 他在遥远的他方.

他很帅, 我很小鹿乱撞.

我很奇怪为什么我会梦见他, 虽然我常看见他.

也许是个缘分, 也许是个先兆.

啊恋爱的感觉~

最近有个男生突然跟我频密联系.

我们原本不认识, 但我们却认识.

缘分真的很奥妙.

我们同小学, 同中学, 同大学, 但从来不同班.

我唯一的运动, 促成这段友谊.

他还蛮不错的, 表面上来看, 但应该就是这样的一个人了吧.

我还蛮期待故事的延续会是如何的.

他跟大头住在同一个地区, 同一个月份生日, 隔一天而已.

缘分真的很奥妙.

hahahaha shrug.

"When a man is willing and eager,

the gods join in."

  1) There are 10^11 stars in the galaxy. That used to be a huge number.

But it's only a hundred billion. It's less than the national deficit!

We used to call them astronomical numbers.

Now we should call them economical numbers.

2) Always and never are two words you should always remember never to use.

today was not a good day for me.

fought with him again. from the beginning till the end of the date. kind of tiring and heart-broken you know.

my heart almost burst out from my chest, my blood almost rush out from my vein, and i'm almost gone mad and stab him to death. (if only i have knife) [and you know i won't cuz i'm not that stupid to put myself into jail]

god. please tell me what should i do.

why on earth we always stuck in this fucking awkward and awful situation?

my fault? or his problem? i have no idea.

we are actually come from different world, and it's complicated to tell.

he's not lovely, not loving either.

i think he knows what am i talking about.

all i want is he takes the initiative to talk to me (not being loud), hold my hand and hug me tight. no matter what have i done.

damn it he doesn't know i actually cried, just next to him.

he is the dumbest ass in the world.

i wish he is a gentleman.

fuck.

- honey came back from Penang + Singapore. (it's like finally)

- he drove and brought me a pack of chocolates at 2am! [with pyjamas -.- LOL] omg i'm so surprised!

- i'm super busy with my network for the damn whole week. (i'm always the outstanding one)

- therefore i don't have time to read my New Moon and follow the Gossip Girl! sob.

- stuck in shopping malls (especially MV) most of the time.

- i realize that i really love my home, my room, my computer. (i'm homey!)

- honey bought me a pair of red color nice design high heels! i love it! (thank you honey but please remember my size ok)

- watched "Connected", intense storyline + humorous Louis Koo + beautiful Barbie Tsu =

- back UTAR for the briefing of Cultural Exchange Program with Toyota Higashi Senior High School. (yeap it's Japanese!)

- going to KL Pavilion Tangs one year anniversary celebration with WY and HL tomorrow morning.

- fail to make myself sleep before 1am due to the the growing responses.

the list is still going on...

howl~ gotta sleep, it's 2:15am now, good night.

alright, another addiction after Twilight series, i'm so going burst out by stuffing all these thick books and nonstop drama series (first Taiwanese now followed by American) into my little mind and eyes.

okay i know i seem like a bit out-of-date, only to start watching this freaking hot Gossip Girl season 1 now while the whole world is watching season 2.  but whatever it is, i'm still f*cking addicted by the gossip world and the super eye-candy high school boys&girls. *drools*

i love Serena ven der Woodsen. she is hot babe! i thought she was ugly at my first glance but then i was proved wrong! she is just so men-want-to-have and women-want-to-be.

Dan Humphrey. he is cute and witty. most of the girls out there would go for Nate Archibald or Chuck Bass but me. (okay Nate is definitely a hot and sexy guy but he is second in my list ) even my lil sister R also goes for Dan. ha! P sisters love Dan.

well, just because i love Serena and Dan, of course i love this couple on and off screen! yea they actually hook up in real life! woohoo! so sweet! Penn Badgley and Blake Lively both really make a perfect match. *giggles*

omg can you see that? grey color couple shirt! (okay not really couple shirt but you know what i mean ) same step also wei! okay lil J gone siao.

done with Heroes season 1 & 2, now watching Gossip Girl season 1, after that Heroes season 3 + Gossip Girl season 2 and then the L Word! hohohoho~ shiok!

anyway, the wonderful scenery would just embed in my mind - the silence 30 minutes and the blinking fireflies along the riverside show the effect of 'christmas trees without dynamo'.

pictures say the words -:

on the street

hide and peek

the river view

seafood restaurant

loverboy

memorable

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by the way, i'm seriously fascinated by the Twilight series. Stephanie Meyers you are so evil to make me trap into the vampire world. holy.

currently reading New Moon (thanks to B ^^), next will be Eclipse, Breaking Dawn and the unfinished Midnight Sun.

i can't wait for Twilight the movie to release in mid November (originally it is in Nov but seems like it is already delayed to December)! darn it is still so far away. sob.

i could be so emo sometimes, with no reasons,

so that i changed my template again, to black one.

(which i don't really have done with, not i don't like the black, but i'm the cheerful one)

i kind of like it, 'cuz it is what i am now.

i feel like losing in the world.

i don't know what am i doing.

everything seems far away from me.

i am getting invisible.

every minute is passing so slow, yet so fast.

i don't have much time to waste.

it's end of september already.

come on janice, wake up.

stop doing the same thing, repeatly.

i'm not Bella, but i'm trapped by the Edward the deadly beautiful vampire.

Twilight is awesome, i can't draw my attention from it.

gonna finish it asap, then move on to New Moon and Eclipse.

oh no i'm fascinated in the world of novel.

i hardly can get attention from my loverboy.

which is a sad case.

it's holiday, but he is as far away as during school days.

he is so not understand what i want from him.

support, action, concern, attention.