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真的只剩下責任了嗎???我捨不得,也放不下.....

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 17:42:30 +0000

really haven't been here for long long time...i think no more ppl will come here to read my blog la ba, haha~!sorry to those who came before...as I really silly to update the blog, actually, I got many thing that I want to share here, but I just too lazy to do the typing..haha

but this time, i really want to keep some of my feeling and thought here so that I need not to think about them all the time..it makes me feel tired...really..
i think everyone who knows me should know about gary,this guy, I would say he gave me a lot ,but also cost me a lot, he gave me friends from all arounf the world and power from his music so that I can keep on going to face the problems when I was in Swiss...those I really appriciate...however, he also cost me a lot, I lost a lot of time and $ and I even change my personaility(too serious? but that's true)...I don't know how to say, i think start from last year...whenever finish joining his funciton ...the only feeling i got from him is sadness......the more popular he is, the more sadness i got, since it just like I become useless....now he already got more and more fans supporting him, I even don't know wether he still rememebr who amy is...whenever I saw him, there's always a bunch of ppl around him, no more talking between us, less and less solo photo I got.......I keep asking myself y I still continue to support him throught these years? Y I don't give up after I go to swiss? Y I still hope that I can meet him again even though I feel sad after every function? Y I still love to buy his cd and support his music although I already know those songs are no longer the one I listened in 2006 which can make me feel touching from teh bottom of my heart? Y I still joining his funcitons after I know that's onyl because I am responsible for that?

真的只剩下責任了嗎???I keep asking myself about that throught this year, but the answer is..I don't know, cos I really捨不得,也放不下.....我放不下所有因為他而認識的姐妹朋友,我放不下所有我們之間的回憶(no matter with gary or with crystal, anny, yoyo, regina, wansia...everyone I met because of him..),我真的想要珍惜而不是放棄,但有時候真的是很累...但這些,他會知道嗎?我們的無奈,他會感覺到嗎?.............................

my heart is full of sadness right now.......

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i don't know wt i am diong right now...

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:58:02 +0000

HAvn't been here for a long time arleady, cos i have start my internship already, everyday from 10-1030.....that's really not funny i would say, because of that , I los t a lot of things, friends, time, freedom, i can't do wtever i want, i just forcing myself to smile, to work..etc etc....

It seems like I am always alone, even during my break tie from 3-630 everyday, the only thing that I can do is buying a cup of coffee and do some reading ro 3 hours, everyday!wt the........ I am wondering if I make a reight choice......i am really regret for making this deision actually.....because the hotel brand name, i choose to leave my dear friend and work alone, i give up a chance to work in Japan .......ai......

it seems that the distance between me and my friend become really fare away, i lost my ability to find topic to talk , I become a person who aliways doing stupid thing and asking stupid question, I become the one who hope to be involved but not the one who always get involved by others............who can tell me wt i do wrong?I just want to be happy and that's it............i want my friend and my hppy memories back.......no more sadness ........................................

however, there still a long way to go? who can save me?

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Home~Westlife

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

that's wt i am feeling right now...but where is my home?the one in hk ?the one in taiwan? or the one in swiss? i don't know...

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It's Amazing~!

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 16:21:52 +0000

Today I was soo happy, haha~!

Because today I had a free drive by " Ferrari"~!That's the first time in my life, I Would say the feeling of sitting in the Ferrari and driving along the road with a speed of 150km/h is ...................Horrible ......but.....Amazing!!!!! I Just feel like everything is gone soo fast! This second I was 10M in front of the traffic light, and then the next second , I was already 100M away from that~!haha~

I really enjoy that moment and I hope it will never end...haha! But reality will never let our dreams come ture~! so...it's last for only 15 mins...but that's alreayd enough , at least I did try , haha~!

And I think that one day I will be the one who driving that ~!( dreaming again)...haha

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Just want to express my feeling.....

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 10:28:38 +0000

it's the first time for me to update my blog after i got move to pixnet.net...um..actually, i am really down today...um...not only today , but the past few days....although all my problem have been fixed. Ii need not to care about my internship, visa stuff anymore,however, Ii can't feel any happiness come out of my heart.I ijust feel like something is missing in my life...in the past few days, i have nothing to do , nothing that I want to work for....the feeling wasn't that gd..

I did think a lot in the past few days...i thought that y my life isialways full of "challanges"??how come everythime i put a lot of effort in doing one thing but at last , it just fail to achieve the goal?yyy?it is i really that bad so no ppl or country that want to get me involved?although i did ask meself to carry on , and yeah I did , i did carryonn in finding other offer sin hk....but I can't stop myself to feel sad about losing the offer in singapore.....i start deal with the hotel at the beginninig of sep......after i sacrify such a lot of time and effort, they give me a fail in getting the visa is because i am studying in a coutnry that they are not regonise???is it my fault???!!Ii don't know...

actually, after i back to hk , i never feel happy even during my taiwan trip, tha'ts the first time I feel sad when I was watching gary's performance( sure i didn't express my sadness) or eating those tasty food...not because it's always raining, but because I just lost my offer right before i go to taiwan...I lost everything at that time.I really hope that someone could notice my sadness and just came to ask me wt happen....but no one did it.....and during the trip ....something happen that make me feel like.........um....無奈吧...i didn't mean anything, i know ppl did that to me is for my own gd, but when that's happened during my" down period" , it will make me even hurt.

actually, sometimes , i really afraid Mr. Chaw will forget who I am or ppl will just ignore me ......because after i finish my first internship, i found myself got changed..a big change, i become the one who don't know how to make friends with other, how to communicate or social with others...i really want friends, i really want someone who care about me whenever i was down and feeling sad like now, you know wt, after my first internship, i become the one who really like to cry, because if i don't cry, i really don't know how to release my stress and my sadness...i don't know who I can talk to or who can understand my feeling .....whenever i will sad or stressful i just cry on my bed, and I even didn't make any noise, cos i afraid it will disturb my roomate.....i can't see any "sunshine" in my life...all i have is darkness...that's y i changed my background to a sunshine mood.Cos here is the only place that I can express myself ,the only place that i can show my real personality..

Ii rally hope that the old amy can be back, the one who can be friend with everyone, the one who is always being involves by others.....the one who always keep a smile on her face.....the one who always think in a positive way.........

Ii just hope that everything will go fine during my internship, and i hope it can help me to get the old amy back.....and I hope that my english level won't getting worser and worser.......

I am sooo frustrated..........when will it come to an end?

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the end of this semester...

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 21:19:00 +0000

Finally come to the end of this semester, actually, I would say this semester really gone soo fast, it just like i was back to IHTTI yesterday~!
This semester is really a diseaster for me...non stop working , planning, writting, exams..........never end....frustrated is the only feeling that i had now....sometime i even asked myself y I need to pay such a lot to put myself into hell, sometimes just want to cry hard, but even though i cried like lossing my mind, things and exams still comming , whenever i woke up iwt i need to do is to finish plenty of reports and group before the due date...I really want to get used to it, but it's hard, really hard......

alhtough it's hard, but finally it's over, i don't know how i stay alive, is it a miracle?who knows? after this semes, next task will be internship, i don't know if i make a right choices, but it's no doubt that singapore is my favourite place which i would like to carry on my live there in the future, but I have no confidence to say that I must learn something from the internship right now as I don't know if I can satnd with those responsibility of providing high standard of performance, I go a little bit scare, cos ogf my terrible experience in singapore before.......i don't know...It seems that there are full of question mark in my life right now, i don't know wt is really the correct way for me to carry on my life, i don't know wt goanna be happened next year (or in BA) i don't know i don't know , i am totally lost actually...but I realized that no matter how hard life is, you still haev to over come that, "time" is really fair, it will never wait for you , but it must keep going, so hard time must gone someday, this already become a motivation which supporting me ......i really hope that someday , i can find a motivation which can really " motivate " me but not telling me how the realistic is and forcing me to motivate myself...pls no more.....

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Zurich Trip 3

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 11:59:00 +0000

Hey guys.....havn't been here for a long long time, as you know , i got plenty of works this year, i would say , that's totally a diseaster for me, no matter n=mentally or physically......i almost exhausted..........but i still got one month to go...ai.....but anyway, finally come to the christmas break, i got a little bit free time to go to Zurich>
But the weather is damn cold there,-6 C, it's freezing>< but i still eating japanese ice-cream at that time, how crazy I am.....cos i always think that it's a gd time to eat ice ream in winter, cos your ice cream will never melt!haha, that's true, but my hand goanna freeze instead, hahaha!

you know how cold there is? see this!!haha

I went there with a group of my friend, tiff, twins, tomas and ting ting!!we took quite a lot of photo, um......I know I become fat agian after I back to swiss, but that's not really the case....I gain 1.5 kg only....so don't think toooo much, I look like a "bread" in the pic is only because I wore 4 clothes ,ok???

anyway, I almost spent CHF 100 in this trips , but I was soo happy that day , i really feel relax .....the feeling that I almost forgot...it's really a great time for me in this year...and coming to the next stop , it will be ................ITALY!! I will try to take as many photos as I can! wait for it ba~! haha

for more photo, pls go to my photo album~!

P.S> : Oh yes, forgot to mention , there's a christmas tree which got a lot of swarovski crystal on top of it in Zurich Christmas market, sooo beautiful ohhh~!

amy

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Gary~ Super Sunshine~!!

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 15:43:00 +0000

finally~~~

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超級忙裡偷一點點閑^^">

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 03:11:00 +0000

HEHE~before i think some of you already seen qqmy schedule through those week , right? now I have just pass my diseaster week,week 46....I really exhuasted in that week....2 reports, supervisory week, theme lunch preparation , brownie baking.............i just feel like my life is "burning" ..haha, no time to sleep, even when i was sleeping, i still thinking of how can I write for my report....omg....but anyway, those already passed but ne challanges are waiting for me.....cos i still have week 47,48,49.......every got a report to hand in m exma as well.....I really can't imagine how I can be when i back to hk, beocme a panada?haha, who knows?

But there was a gd news I have received last week la, now i have already processing my japan visa lor, hope everything will goes fine and I can make my dream come true la^^westin awaji island, i am coming!

hehe, show you a video and some photos I took today's morning ba^^

can anybody see twins there?

soo peaceful ne

beauti?

*video in photo album oh^^

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It seems that I have a great change in my personality....

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 21:39:00 +0000
hey , to anyone who will come to my blog.actualyl some ppl always tell me y my blog soo sad......um...I don't know maybe that who I am ba...cos i think here already the only place that I can share my real feeling ...to say wt i want to say , wt I am busy with....I already not sure which amy is the real amy lu.....

first of all, let's talk about my school life.....i would say ....it's suck........plenty of report , supervisory work, non stop planning ...group wor...event planning....evening duty....intership stuff....I really frustrated...I already forgot when I was really happy and always in good mood throughout the day...I already forgot when I will think tomorrow is a happy day...maybe there are no more happy day in my life la ba.....I don't know.

actually, sometimes , I start to hate myself....cos after i back to HM, I easily get angry with someone, I always blaming others and said they don't do their work and blah blah blah.....
but actually I think I am just jealous ba...cos even if they sleep , they play , they laugh, they can even get a gd mark in the test or project work.........I hate myself y I study a long time for nothing...y I put a lot of effort to do the report for nothing...I don't know....y I pay such a lot to study for nothing.... Y i can't really do wtever I did....y I sent more than 100 cv but only 2 hotel accept me......y....y....y...y...?

actually , today , I already get an offer from a japan hotel.......my dream destination, but i don't know why, i ddin't feel any happiness, although i finally get an offer after i paid such a lot of effort......but at htis momment...I just feel everything is not confirm yet, I shouldn't pay that much of hope.....and I always afriad others will apply to that hotel as well and make me lost the offer.....I don't know wt happen to me, i really don't know.........If that's happened in HO, I think I amost screamed out in my room and go out for celebrateion la ba.......now, I just thinking of how can I finish my MHO project within tonight, how can I finish the data analysis and the preparationn work for my next week supervise, when should I start to collect eh info for IBP part b assignment...........

now I just hope that time can past quickly.....cos I longer want to stay here........it just like the hell..............I already have no confident to say I can get a BA from here la..........I am soo frustrated already.............

who can save me?

"Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home"

that's wt I feel now.......where are my friends ?where is amy? where is gary?
i don't know............

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Wt can I do now?

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 18:09:00 +0000
i don't kow how to express my feeling now....i just feel hopeless ......it seems that no one can help me, no one understand me, and no one can stnd with me???
i just freel so stressful.......i ven don't wan tot to do anything, don't wan tto read anything related to those assignment , report, internship stuff....it's always hurting me....no reply for internship, no highly motivated groupmates....nonono, nothing...i got nothing.................i can't do wt i want to, i can't go whever i like, i don't know if i can pass through this few weeks.....anyone can push me a bit? i have no more power to move on.......

i just feel sad at this moment.......

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我捱得過嗎?

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 12:35:00 +0000

我捱得過嗎?
or this already the last few weeks in my life????? I don''t know....

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which way should I choose?

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 11:42:00 +0000

Y human beings always face this kind of problems? If you want to protect yourself, then you can to give up something....friendship?ai........

Now , my everyday life seems only got" internships" this word...it 's the only thing in my brain.......no internships, mean nothign i can do...no motivation, no target..nothing...

I hate this kinnd of waiting.......it make me sooo nervous....i don't wan tot use all of my time to dealing with this problem.....i hate that......

but i don't think i can get rid of that until i got an offer.....ai....japan? singapore? friendship?internship? which one should I choose????

..........

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It was my happiest time that I ever had here, but it no longer the truth...

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 17:39:00 +0000

I still remember last year , today was the happiest time that I ever had here, Wine festival, the biggest event in neuchatel.....playing hard , drank hard, although i hurt my knee, but I still very happy ...like no stress, no sadness...only friends and happy memories.......but those will no longer exists.......

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When can I get my reply???????????

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 07:13:00 +0000
ai......when i can get the reply from any hotel in japan ne?????
it seems that I got a difficult task again.....how come i always choose the way that not easy to go through????I always ask myself this questitons but i never get an answer........actually i can get an internship easily by choosing my home country or just simply stay in swiss or somecountry like dubai? actually i know it, but I just want to choose the destination that i really wan tot go to and really want to live there ,like last time, i choosed taiwan....although many thing happened and it totally a hard time for me, but I will never regret about having this decision , cos i really got a lot of happiness from that hard time...and those memories will never be forgotten......
However , this time , i have choosed japan......it seems that it will more harder than going to taiwan ........it that a wrong decision?i don't know, cos japan is one of my favourite place, i really wan tot stay their and experience their lifestyle.....i wan tto use all the chance provided by this course to go whereever i want, those place that I may not be there forever if i didn't pick this course, i really don't wan tto waste any chance...but can I make it htis time? i don't know....I got less and less confident about that......who can help me? hope i will get some reply tomorrow ....positive reply...pls......
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mood swing again again and again...

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 20:03:00 +0000
almost didn't update for a month again...I am soo lazy ne^^">
and , finally i have back to swiss to continue my study...a feel like back to prison again, haha~
as wt i have exoected, everything and everyone changed after the intership , even myself, i won't say that's gd or not, but i just can't get used to that yet.The distance between each other become much more far than before, everyone just become a little group and enjoying their own world within their group, although everyone may behave nothing was happened, but I believe everyone are know about it, time is really a horrible thing, never wait for anyone , never care about anything, just move forward and try it's best to make ppl being far from each others.............

I think after the internship , or i would said after living in taiwan for half year, or even after i study in Swiss for half year, all of my faith and convidence had gone. it just like I got a deep hole inside my heart, nothing is important to me, friendship become a thing that's always hurting me, no matter wherever i go , I just keep myself away from other, i dont' want to talk with anyone or even having any eye conact whenever i talk to them. You know y? because I don't want to be hurt agian.......I don't wan tot show any care to anyone anymore, cos I afraid , I afriad i will have nothign return even I pay a lot of effort to build friendship with others, it's really tired, when you show your repects to them and try to care about them, but when you are sad, when you are sick, and when you really want someone to talk to, or even when you want someone to give you a hug in orer to show that you are not alone......Who care? when you really put a lot of effort to keep the friendship but your friend just think those are bull shit and try different way to scold you and blaming you didn't care about them...wt will you think?I think you will just give up in trying anything like me, cos the only one who will never giveup you is yourself, the one who really love you is yourself only, no others......I really tired...I don't want to try...

I think I better move to a place that with no ppl living in, cos I already lose the ability to communicate with others and to be happy....I think I have to protect myself from getting hurt agian....

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到不了...

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 18:24:00 +0000
到不了...

你眼睛会笑　弯成一条桥　

终点却是我　永远到不了

感觉你来到　是风的呼啸　

思念像苦药　竟如此难熬　每分每秒

我找不到　我到不了　

你所谓的将来的美好　我什麽都不要

知不知道　若你懂我　这一秒　我想看到　我在寻找

那所谓的爱情的美好　我紧紧的依靠

紧紧守牢　不敢漏掉　一丝一毫　愿你看到
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everything changed........

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 16:35:00 +0000
i remember last weeks, i was looking forward to come back....but now , at this moment, i already have no feeling about my holiday in hk anymore....i don't know, i really looking forward meet my friends, everytime before i go out and meet them , i just get well prepared and " think" that it must be a great memory for me to bring back to swiss...however, all are out of my expectation, whenver I meet with them, we no longer have topic even we had more than 1000 topics before...I was rally outdated...i sees that wherever i go , i just got no friend ...跟每個人的關係都變得生疏．．．就好似以前辛苦所建立的友誼都唔見哂ｇｕｍ．．有時會諗究竟當初要去唔同的國家見多ｄｉ學多ｄｉ　ｇｅｉ決定係ａｒｍ定錯呢？如果ａｒｍ　ｇｅｉ，自己而家就唔會ｇｕｍ唔開心，如果錯ｇｅｉ，而家亦無回頭的餘地了．．．而家我知道當一個人係每個地方都停留唔超過半年ｇｅｉ時候，佢ｇｅｉ所見所學無疑係多左，但所失去的永遠比得到ｇｅｉ多，ｏｎｌｙ令人變得孤獨就已經夠了．．．．．

ｙａｕ諗太多了．．．．
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Innternship report part 12~!

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 12:12:00 +0000
okok, everybody, here coem to part 12^^

as I remember last time, i was talking about how frustrated in teaching new intern, isn't it? but after the last week, i can say i got a different point of view about teaching or wroking with them.

in the past week, as our outlet got 3 new interns who called Egger, Summer and Sheila, all of us including me, intern as well ,have to teach them how to be a successful waiter or waitress is bel air. For me, I am the one who teach them the operational work in the back office.I just teach them what they have to prepare for the underlinder of the dishes, how to polish cultery, how to read the order, how to "fire" food, etc, etc. i just keep repeat, repeat and repeat everyday , you know why?cos they report on different day?!haha

sometimes, when i have to tach them during the busy hours in the back office, i was really frustrated, that's not phsically tired, but mantally one...it is because i have to take care of them and keep the back office running smoothly at the same time, the responsibility make me really stressful, and I also have to control myself not to being crazy in the back office and have to be professional when ever i present the food before our guests, keeping pressing myself make me feel tired,now i finally know how hard to be a teacher .

but on the other hand , when i was teaching them, it just like i am teaching myself, y i say so? it is because they were doing what i did feel months ago, i still remember few months ago, everything is new to me, no matter colleagues, chiefs, those tasks,and I always make mistakes or forgot some importants steps during work. Now i finally realised how my colleague feel when they were teaching me at that time^^"but I also told myself not to shouted at them or give them pressure whenever they make mistakes, since i always remind myself "if you don't want people treat you in this way, then you should never treat others in that way" , punishment can't help anything but only make people lose their confident.Actually, i also got improvement when teaching them, since when they were doing something wrong, I can remind myself not to do it again and think about how to correct the mistakes they have made,someimtes we just discuss with each other and find the solution together. besides,sometimes the way that they work in the back office like the way to prepare the underlinder and the way they polish those cultery are even better than the one that I am using, therefore ,I think that when I am teaching them, actually i am learning from them at the same time, I really feel glad to have a chance to be their little teacher. Although i will finish my first internship within a month, but I hope that I can share what i have learned in Bel Air to them and i hope those knowledge can help them to be an all-rounded waiter or waitress.
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internship report part 11~

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 16:56:00 +0000
ok, here come to part 11~!

as I have mentioned in the pervious blog, many of my good collaeges' internship are come to an end, now more and more new interns is coming to our restaurant. As everyone have the responsibility to teach the new interns,for me, I am responsible to teach them how to be a food controller, to be the king/queen of the back office, haha!

Actually when i head my team leader , Hsin , told me in brifing time" Amy, today you just take care the new intern and teach her how to be the food controller.", the first thing come to my mind was" oh ! what? I teach a new intern? I just work for 3 months, how can I teach them? I even can't do the job well yet......" I just feel really stressful at that time, I afraid that I will make mistakes when teaching them, as I still not really familiar with the restaurant operation. And now i just realized how difficult when you have to teach someone, you cannot only tell them how to do that job , but have to show them as well, besides you also need to teach them and work at the same time! since they are new in the restaurant , they may know nothing about how to present the food, where is the position that they have to bring the food to, how to read the order, how to prepare the underlinder, which dishes use which kind of underlinder, how to do the side table service, how to do the polishing and be the food controller a the same time....................etcetc, you have to teach them all the thing that you have learned from past 3 months within ine day time........it really a hard task for me, cos i am also a " new" intern in Bel Air, sometimes when there were more than 50 guests come to our restaurant, everyone will be very busy and everything just become messy, especially the back office, i just run here and there to ge the order and polish all the thing like a crazy woman!now i have one more task is to teach them at the same time! now i finally realized that how tired and hard of being a teacher or leader, and I really feel both of my team leader and manager are superwomen, they just do everything well, no matter teach and work ,or even dealing with guest's complain. Now they already becoem my targetm i hope that one day,I can be a successful hotel operator like them.

Although it's tried when dofing such a lot og thing at the same time, but I did gain a benefit form this challenging task.It is because as I have to teach the new intern, i have the responsibility to be a good sample for them, thus i work more harder then before, although it stressful but it pushing to try harder to do the job probably,cos if you do it wrong, they new intern will do it in the same way, since they just learn it form you, so I can't make any mistake when i am working. So now whenever i got questions, i will try my best to fidn teh answer, now i already not afraid of asking quesetions, since i have to find the answer so as to teach them how to do the job well,so if people say the new interns is learning from you, i would say actually, because of them, i even learn mroe than before, therefore, not only i want say thank you to my boss and team leader, but to those new internship, because of them, i gain much more knowledge.
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internship report part 10~!

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 07:41:00 +0000
Cry during my workinig time...........

today'sreport is so simple, just like my topic, " cry during my working time~" let me explain y it happen to you guys.

till now, i have already work in bel air for more than 3 months, I would say, i really learn a lot in the past 3 month, especially when i was working in the back office to be the food controller, i really love this job actually, since you can lean a lot of skills that you can't learn from your school or from the books, you have to learn from your experience, eg.) time management. And chief are really funny there , i always haev a happy time there. Howeve sometimes, it really stressful, especially when the reservation is more than 50 ...cos at that time, the manager outside will always come to the back office and ask for the food and the chief inside will always push you to bring the food outside...I would say that's a nightmare for me...it is because when everything gonna be hurry, everyone will in a bad mood,as they can't show that to the guest, wt they can do is show their bad mood in the back office, eg.)giving pressure to the chief so as to bring out the food as soon as they can., so when the chief is not happy, who they can shouted at in order to release their stress?????? the answer is.............................the food controller in the back office! that's me in the past one month, haha~i understand everyone should find a way to release their stress, so i won't mind about that, but sometimes a questions will come up to my mind, who I can release my stress to?????the answer si no one, haha!

I still remember last sunday , I did cry during my working time, our restaurant was selling brunch on that day, many people come in , i think there were more than 70 guests, and I was a food controller on that day, everyone just gonna be crazy , I just run and run and run to present the food the the customers, although i already try my best to do my work, but it seems it still not fast enough, therefore, cheif and manager are just keep "talk to me loudly" and at last even scream in the back office, actually, i was already exhusted at that time, i just rememerb i have to run and present the food, and there were plenty of cutlery and glasses were waiting for me to polish...i was just dragged out at that moment, so my tears just out of my control...everything just out of control....i really want to control myself , but i can't..so when the team leader know about that, she just get me out of the back office and talk for a while, i just keep crying in that 5 m ins, after that, I continue my work. before i will think that everyone in the back office will pretent nothing was happened...but they didn't, it make me soo surprised is that, every chief and my collueages jsut come to the back office and ask if i am ok and ask me to cheer up! I just feel soo warm at that time....although it's really my hard time last week( a lot of workload, not enough rest time, many perrsonal stuff have to due with.....) , I really glad to have you guys, thank you soo much, and thank god to give me such a good challenge .
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