coffee, tea, or me?
於NYC Commerce界奮鬥到第三年,終於可以在 Psychology的世界大口呼吸。分不清放空和思考,就如同離不清我和美食之間的愛恨情仇。被宗教哲學神話等形上思想所蠱惑,神遊25%的世界地圖讓腎上腺素陡增。生活中時刻有跳躍音符於背景點綴,在搖滾的殿堂上,是個徹底臣服拜倒的groupie。當不成photographer,純粹仰賴文字圖片以自我救贖自我解放自樂自high。愛花俏愛漂亮愛熱鬧愛酷索愛自己愛這個世界!
【圖】壽星V 爸, 

Toccata - Myleene Klass

On a summer's day, a man walks into the restaurant. He pauses by one of the stained glass windows, splendidly backlit by the afternoon sun and looks about as regal as it's possible for a man to be without benefit of royal robes. 

At the age of 62, he stands ramrod-straight, eternally tan, eyes flashing with mischief, as a slightly sardonic grin plays around his lips, making you feel he's just been told a joke that you couldn't possibly understand

We don't confer titles in North America, but if we did like the English, he would surely be Sir W, if not Lord Z.

Just the kind of man who should be Julius Caesar. Not Shakespeare's Caesar, a dusty bore but the one imagined by George Bernard.

He sits down, orders a glass of red wine and relaxes. His jacket is stylishly cut, but the lack of a tie indicates that this man may be imperial, yet he's not imperious. 

Ask him why he wants to do volunteer work after taken an early retirement 7years ago and he cuts right to the chase. 

"Because it's very, very kinky. i feel like a sexy, smart older man infatuated with a devilishly divine social skem."

Having caused a shock wave with his daring opening line ( as he knew he would) he instantly backpedals with race, as the naughty but well mannered Asianmount that he was raised to be. 

"It's not quite as lascivious," he purrs, "but there is that naughty frisson behind the relationship of the world and you that keeps me on my toes without being wired. I've enjoyed my past 7 yrs of no work but play. I've decided to join the working force not because I have to, but it's so fascinating because my daughter suddenly becomes a dream chaser, a sensual dream chaser. My God! I can't be left behind, life should be a romantic comedy....hahaha."

"I'm so glad I can be an example of whom is still young at heart, " exults the man, "and I'm thrilled with what our community's doing. I have felt great energy and grace and youth...ah, youth!"

But it takes more than a charming community and a tempting work site to get this man to commit his 2 days a week. He's still in demand by his family, and much more by his daughter who's still stuck in PEI. 

"I've always believed in returning to the community. I thank God for the past, present and future to come. I thank my family for supporting me to take risk and dares. It's all good. It's all exciting. It doesn't matter if it's rocky or not. It's change and I needed it."

Of course, he wouldn't be Z the Perfectionist if he didn't find some faults and he's ready to speak about them as well.

"I got to get all the genteel out of the place, and have a nice snooze. I also don't want to work much. I can't do my best work if I constantly running madly from one to another. It's like going to a restaurant with a menu that's so big you know the chef just can't prepare every dish well."

The man pauses to take a sip of wine, speaking more softly when he resumes.

Ask him what he remembers about his first legit job and he laughs.

"Going to bed at four in the morning. No really, that's what it was. A big party. We were all like that. The company wanted to test me. They would keep me up drinking till all hours because they wanted to see if I was tough enough to carouse all night and then perform my duties at a matinee the next day. And if you did, you were a man, my son."

The world "retire" isn't in his vocabulary and he grows excited again as he talks about the kind of work he still wants to do. 

"I want to be a character who drive, who do, who make things happen."

The man drains his glass of wine and looks off in the distance where the sun is sinking ever lower in the sky. 

" I do want to attend my daughter's wedding soon," he says a bit wistfully, "but it's always regarded as a farewell and I don't even want to think of that.

"No, not yet."


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Stars Are Blind - Countdown

Feels like a memory
By cigarette burns down
And the smoke goes
Hello hello hello
Round in my head
Hello hello hello
My substitute's in town
And my memory's free
Hello hello
Round in my head
Just for a moment
White smoke goes
And my memory's free


model: Sarah Jane



well, the light had beaten the hell out of this silly one! hehe... why not post it anyway ;))
pentax 6x7 105/2.4 ilford hp5+

mp/nocti/t64


bessaflex/helios40-2/provia400x@1600


I'm not sure why the purplish tint to this batch.. hmmm.. maybe some of you would know and can tell me ^^






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昨日心情大好!

-22,is the number of how many people 在拔比家. 

- 收到跟老羅自己一樣heavy大咖的愛心包裹。除了大概一年都看不完的偵探小說(您是不打算讓我出院的???),各種食品上有羅前輩的小紙條寫著:平時保養喝、感冒前兆喝、信封給妳需要的時候備用(自己還加了“哈“在後面,我想大概是在暗示我該寫信啦..XD )等等非常 random 的註解。最精彩應該是寫給我的信,紫色小碎花信紙上寫著:“背面抄錄的是周杰倫演唱的古典曲風歌詞,雖然妳不愛周董但還是要強迫妳念下歌詞。“ ......... 羅!!

- 從文字從紙與油墨的專屬氣味到 還有變裝單眼人帶來的回憶.. 我被感動沖刷得徹底,眼眶是溼潤是紅的。

- 當然匹林訂給我的精神糧食也安全抵達我的小病房啦,Thank you! : )

- 隔壁房來探grandma的小女孩吃Mr Koon買來的餅乾吃得很開心,很認真和我耍寶。

- 思念洶湧而至,打開電腦就上 msn 就往各 blog 巡視你的最新生活簡報。

- 和財經大師瑪莉討論關於3X10的籌備夢想構圖,亂熱血一把。

- 洗完澡把 i love blog 盡情逛完一圈,留言 spam 到凌晨三點方罷休。

- 謝謝V 媽24/7的critique,您讓我虔誠地相信,寶藏,可以自己創造。

這都是一些小事,都是一些我好喜歡的小事。

@PEI,醫院似乎大於溫馨;遠離曠男怨女族群,遠離只是那條找伴共渡的最後死線。在這個no place is more than 16 km from the sea 的小島,不瞑的我,無論是記憶中或是今夜,都來自遠方

millions of kisses.......



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Lavande -

all taken by 50mm 1.8 lens.
You're safe if I'm safe


Let silence do the talking


Fascinated by your beauty, I think I have to suck the best out of u. The little bee confessed. 


Love isn't perfect, even diamonds start as coal


they say a love w/out pain isn't a love worth fighting for, and I'll say it Aint over till u say so


Dont stop believing



lazybug.........I mean ladybug, kind of like u don't u think?


Attack of the Bokeh-monster!


La vie est ainsi
pleine de soucis
La vie est comme ça
pleine de combat
La vie est ainsi faite
pleine de defaites

Je vis seule loin de tout le monde
car je n'ai plus personne dans ce monde
Je vis la vie comme elle vient
car je n'ai plus confiance dans les miens
Je vis sans attendre le landemain
car la vie le detient entre ses mains

La vie est ainsi faite
pleine de defaites 

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I Like the Way You Move - Bodyrockers 

我發現我對征服需要靠吵架進化的生物沒什麼熱情,一邊摺紙鶴一邊蒐集旅遊自拍VCD會內傷。

Koon在實驗室照顧老鼠
的空檔聽到我最近的activities列表忍不住嘖嘖稱奇,其實我只是單純覺得既然不能用功準備BJ trip 就要用力玩,本人很簡單的即時行樂生活邏輯。經過了CT ,化驗、住院、既定流俗的生命打卡機永遠幫我算好報到的年齡,我大概就很難有機會肆無忌憚地狂褒一之在找時間想要複習或吸收的舊經典(haha, especially Daddy's take on our last visit to Belgium)、拉上所有窗簾呆在螢幕前、從白天匹林打電話來問我在幹麻到他下班回家後打電話來問我在幹麻,答案都是看VCD。

 

於是…

放一些 upbeat,
配上一點梅酒的微醺,
開懷的笑靨在眼前慢速播放。


該死,居然有點想哭。


但我知道,當我事後回想時,
應該是連作夢都會忍不住微笑吧。


P.S. I have already uploaded couple of new vids on my youtube account. 請各V國人自由行。


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Artist: Myleene Klass
Toccata - Myleene Klass


我隊T說it's such a shame that 這樣 breathtaking 的 site 只供給病人 . but then again on the other hand, otherwise I would never been able to see these!!! It's a tough job, but someone got to experience and live to tell!!! Like all things in life, everything has a price tag. 

note to self, plz get sick and sneak in here any time u r about to have a meltdown!!!

 

最近愛做事之一: 4am 下溫泉,all u need is yourself and the-forever-40-degree-whiteness, keep nothing in b/w. 


the end, goodnite!!

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1。下午去micblab,坐了5分鍾開始understand 為什麼window seat這麼的空(而且還是1-5 PM,太陽就正好掛在窗戶外跟V面對面親密交流…( ̄▽ ̄##))而且護士小姐特別叮嚀身體不可以亂動。V就這樣被大自然BB Q。

2。發現T好像常常在我的blog裡被點名吼?沒辦法他太想紅了~ XD hahaha jkjk

恭喜你要去那個遍地都是紅燈區的city,雖然被你describe成人在江湖,etc.(後面忘了)那些會讓你煩心的,茫然 or 挫折都是在訓練你到達你心中所指的那個方向. 訓練越多你就越是接近那個終極點了。也許會割傷手指,也許會頭破血流,(更也許會have no time for me)。但是只要有敢於突破的決心與勇氣(meaning, 還是要maintain 我們的regular business好不好嘛),希望就不會對你關上了門。(V老人家好愛念)

3。nurse Annex送我一個小公仔。她說看到牠的大眼睛時直覺就想到我,這是為什麼呀??難道V也擁有如此天真無邪水汪汪的大眼睛嗎?(°д°) 真是令人費解!(謎:怎麼會有這麼不要臉的人 = =lll 看下圖就知道這有多不可能了吧lll)決定叫牠 rumoo:美式唸法 [’ru:mu:],台版唸法 [’ru:m∂u];要看牠是亞裔還是歐美牛


(有點奇怪的結論)



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  怎麼說,一到PEI就好像回到一個熟悉的窩。這是第一次到PEI,街頭熱鬧繽紛的顏色和人群開朗地哈哈大笑,毫不害臊地用一種歡樂的氣息將陌生的我擁抱然後瞬間融化。我當然沒有乖乖先去醫院報備,第一時間check out PEI燒seafood等食物非常對我的胃和味,海邊人特有的腔調順耳可愛得要命,聞名的爆笑演劇館光是看海報上的搞笑鬼臉就很 high,各式各樣無厘頭的紀念品(例如seafood BBQ 口味gum、PEI教戰手冊...)讓我直呼大心!想說接下來有unknown days(months?) of hospital life, 所以速變大胃王。

這些都不是主題啦,最最讓人感動到speechless 的是親愛的Koon先生的造訪。這些天V以280-km/hr  的speed 垂直dive in 與世隔絕的74 英畝 of land 裡。Mr. Koon remainded me that I do have a life outside of this box. 在Vmulti - repeat the pain of having no computer in site, 親愛的Koon先生大愛到贊助V一臺MacBook Air.

Congratulations, you and your MacBook Air were made for each other.(恭喜你,你和你的筆電真是天生一對!) 這樣簡單的一句話大字印在使用者手冊的封面上,天哪,怎麼會有這麼人性化這麼貼心的台詞。

就像我很容易被電影海報上『Two thumbs up!』的宣傳文字騙倒一樣,明明知道只是一種煽動人心的說法,拿到 MBA (MacBook Air) 已經將近兩天,該是時候公開介紹了。

 

匹林問我 MBA 有沒有任何缺點,好不好用。對我來說,『價格』大概是它唯一的缺點,其他地方完美無瑕。但即然不是我買單,又哪裡會心痛。(哇卡卡,Mr. Koon 又被騙到了)。我已經可以接受它只有一個 USB 槽,反正我使用藍芽滑鼠,如果 USB 埠真的不夠用,頂多外接多埠插槽。我已經可以接受它沒有網路孔,反正有 Wi-Fi。我可以接受它內建電池不可卸除,因三個多小時的續航力在筆電裡已算好用,大不了隨身攜帶 power adaptor,反正本來就會隨身帶。我可以接受它沒有內建光碟,因為Mr. Koon 還貼心的加送了 SuperDrive。

 

 


它是如此聰明,燈一關銀幕亮度自動變暗。它是如此美麗,背光鍵盤在黑暗中閃閃發亮,鋁美外殼質感無限。它是如此輕巧,輕輕用兩根手指一提便跟著我走。它是如此人性化,搭載了全世界 (私心認為) 最好用最智慧的作業系統 OS X Leopard,不當機不中毒,連我原本以為跑起來會很吃力的 Adobe 家族軟體,如攝影最常使用的 Lightroom & Photoshop,對它來說都不成問題。兼具移動性美感作業能力強大於一身,這真是令人太感動了。


 

各位,這將是我的新愛小白


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- 超美味可頌捲早餐(心酥指數 100%)

- 當地下青春雜貨書店及歐風創意傢俬遇上菜市場與百貨公司

- 十點的泰餐館,侍者直接派送附圖菜單,企圖軟性喝止JK&me想要假裝自己是泰國人繼續用不標準的發音點菜造成待應師父的困惑 XD (明明可已easily use Eng)

Royal Ontario Museum美術館,從一樓哇上樓,十五分鐘的迷你電影院放映的黑白影片感動得想哭!雖然館內禁止攝影大殘念,專心體驗art的魔法才是重點。

- 路過舊校(UT),吃凡大學生皆狂推之一風堂拉麵外加Fresh的招牌飲料及無限續盤豆芽菜

- 偷偷摸摸回到禁止V出門的爸媽家,邊等洗衣機洗好明日要bring的衣物邊和JK草率討論了晚上的行程,所以目前行程是:沒有行程 XD

- darn it, 不知道這張phone card 在PEI可已通話多久,不知道6/7月的牆要空白多久,不知道手術+康療期需要多久,不知道T的cell phone 要關機多久,不知到還要和these lumps against my throat 相處多久。

對了,很文不對題因為剛剛自己吃過藥... BUT..



祝每位身體健康 !!(心)

 



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Young Folks - Peter Bjorn & John Feat. Victoria Bergsman

Home is where my heart is at!!!



new house new back yard view




所以考試後我在幹麻??

其實也沒有特別在幹麻。沒有,一個字都沒有看,執照考試遙遙無期大概會被我賴到明年五月底。偶爾睡前看看商業周刊和NO LOGO 是我近幾天來最學術性的舉動,其他的大部分時候我是個無腦的傢伙。在爸媽家被電話制約的反射動作讓我(尤其在看DVD的時候)感到相當煩燥,這種情況已經嚴重到只要電話鈴響就會帶來一陣莫名爆跳的怒氣。不,我對你們的產品沒有興趣;我不在乎TORONTO SUN 還是Province哪個比較有建設性;不,我連吃飯都很吃力你要我做什麼servey; 是的我已經邋遢到像是住在山洞裡,除去醫院脫光光被test之外,我不想要打扮出門淺層微笑花力氣和人類社交;你打錯了,嗯再見沒關係;我不在,不會,今天都不會出去。

結果我還是很孬,電話線始終沒有拔掉。


於是我就在這樣心情不算很乾淨,不時戰戰兢兢很像隨時要躲空襲警報的狀態之下看完一支又一支錄影帶。鈕承澤製作的『求婚事務所』近來深得我心,導演抓的鏡頭、配樂卡進畫面精準的時機、演員稱職的表現、編劇神來一筆的巧思,唉呀總之就是繼『名揚四海』之後另一誠意推薦。豆導真是個有魅力到不行的男人,我被他的才情和小動作迷得七葷八素神魂顛倒。這部戲勾起我的老家想念。

然後很不怕死的在同一個下午又看了『The Piano』以及『Three Colours - Blue』,剛好都是1993年出品。室內的空氣因為劇情的張力緊繃到隨時可能讓我爆漿的地步,電影鬱悶的程度絕對有辦法讓人窒息。The Piano的電影原聲帶聽了好多年,今天那些聲音終於填充進視覺的影像,很奇妙的一種感官順序,真不敢相信這是十一年前的片子了,十一年前的質感居然沒有被時代淹沒。法國電影紅藍白三原色系列我永遠搞不清楚是看過那一支,也搞不清楚那些顏色後面和迷啊深啊挑啊之類的排列組合,總之今天想要租藍色的,那就藍色了。


所以我最近大概就是這樣,對電話鈴聲很反感,電影院已經沒有好電影想看於是開始跑去租片子,仍舊吃吃喝喝,偶爾會想要把自己抽離假裝什麼都不知道像葉子一樣吐納或者像水氣一樣人間蒸發,煩惱住PEI還是Quebec 的醫院,持續過著懶得做太多解釋的生活,喜歡行事曆上六月份故意全部空白的淋漓痛快,喔耶我要當一個廢人。



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