Power of Integration 整合的力量

Everything happens in a relationship said by a coach, Kelly, whom I admired a lot.

If we are willing, we will see that we have a relationship with everyone and everything around us! And it is this relationship that moves us forward or backward.

I've been doing quite a lot of work on myself lately regarding recognizing my own shadow and those qualities that I don't like in myself based on the book of "The Dark Side of The Light Chaser". For me, it's a powerful process although during process of discovery and recognizing and embracing, it didn't feel good or more accurately it was scary!!

Meditation is a powerful way to put yourself into this process. It's very simple to do it. Simply close your eyes and take a few deep breaths and allow yourself to relax your whole body or focus your attention on your breathing and when you feel you are relaxed enough then you can start this process and allow words, pictures, or feelings to come into your awareness or consciousness. 

我的家現在有六個人,媽媽,弟弟,弟媳,大妹,小妹,當然還有我。

我常常跟別人分享我有很棒的家人,因為除了官方的關係之後,我的媽媽,弟妹,還有弟媳都是我生命中重要的夥伴,也是一個心靈上很重要的依靠。很多時候,我真的很感謝有他們在身邊,因為有他們,我知道我永遠有一個港灣可以停靠,在那裡只有愛與支持！我以我的家人為豪！

  
今年滿34歲了耶!! 很多人不喜歡告訴別人自己的年紀,可是我發現我自己很愛大聲嚷嚷我的年齡。原因很簡單,因為我收到的回應都是"真的嗎?看不出來耶,你看起來像20幾歲耶!!" 當然,我真心相信這些回應是真誠發自內心的囉！呵呵呵

剛才注意到今天的日期,突然發現今天是爸爸離開這個世界的第五年。今年也是我的生命靈數的流年五。今天也是我正式成立我的部落格的日子,而且是打算很認真的經營這個部落格喔！其實我的妹妹珍小花一直很鼓勵我寫東西,但我總是有一堆的理由跟藉口為什麼我不行,i.e.我用說的比較有靈感,用寫的我就會卡住;我沒什麼創作能力啦,你比我會寫,好羨慕喔;我哪有時間寫;我不會用部落格啦,很複雜耶, blah blah blah ... 當然,旁觀者清,當局者迷。

回到我的父親。雖然爸爸走了那麼久了,但是我總是能夠感受到父親帶給我的祝福blessings! 有時候,我想起父親,就會有一股很感動的感覺,有那種電流通過身體的感受。有時候,自己碰到一些不如意的事情或者挫折的時候,想起爸爸就會有一股力量繼續往前走,因為我是爸爸的女兒。^_^ 我的父親不是那種Rara(就是那種很會說去表現自己的人),他比較是那種噯曖內含光型的。雖然爸爸說的不多,但是回看爸爸的一生,我真的更加感受到什麼叫做"名聲_reputation_what you are known for"。爸爸一直以來是正直有操守的男人。有時候覺得ㄟ...你會不會太固執了一點,但是現在回看,嗯...原來這個叫做原則!! 是的,用我的原則過生命,一直是爸爸過活的標準。