ye88 ★ 等待着.一个奇迹的出现... ★

Have been off for so damn long~~~ LOL...so much to catch up...hmmm...

suddenly wanna go travel with friends...
but look around....i left not many friends to be able to travel together....
u know, like those girls gang trip.....
38 girls.....hmmmm....
n itu sis always get to travel with her gang, bf....sponsored trips....
make me so damn envy....eesh....

nvm....i can travel alone....
just parents will be worried...
but i believe in my lifetime, i gonna travel once on my own....
to those europe or where....LOL....
(watch too much movie)....kekekke....

hmmm....after taiwan trip i think tat travel dun go wif parents...especially those nid find road n directions which u r not familiar about....
u noe youngsters love to explore things...roads...ways....
bt parents would not wan to walk 'yuan wang lu'....
so such a diverge opinion tat makes us quarrels almost eriday during the trip...

However, now i that i think of....after erithg happen this yr.....went into police station twice in 1 year....
I guess i nid a runaway or wadever to change.....
tat day i met a friend...a long lost frien....who never talk or meet almost for 5 years....
tat day met him....well....still same...bt got 1 thing i reali amazed about....
is d friendship that he willing to spend on it....
he willing to attend convo of a frien of his.....well...if is in msia within kl is ok la....
bt i guess if is in diff state not many friens willing to do tat 4u right....
juz to attend your convo....take pics with u....share the joy wif u....
bt he is not....he even willing to fly over to USA to attend it.....
although mayb is not purely just to attend the convo la...mayb include sum travel thg or wad so ever....
but that is part i admire him d most.....

always friens will put families, money, work ahead us....
how many in d world willing to spend such a big amount of money juz to attend your convo....
well....for those hu r willing to....great....u are d person i most admired!!! n i wanna b ur frien...
although i knot say i will attend my frien;s convo as well...bt at least if u invite me, i will try my best to attend....
be part of your joy....
got a frien whom i tot i noe him long enough....bt it seems not....juz told me he will not attend my convo juz becuz he dun wanna return to sg so early....well...it is ur choice...bt it seems I have alot of

aih....have a lost contact frien hu try many times bt knot find her....
a frien hu said if have any problem can find her....
bt when u do...realli do wana find her to share ur sorrow or happiness...
she is no wher to b seen...
mayb i alwaz around such frien hu do not make on their promises???
i guess is faith bring us all together...
but not everyone are meant to be your frien....

at least not mine....

I...
I need...
I really need...
I really need a...
I really need a new...
I really need a new life...
I really need a new life to...
I really need a new life to get...
I really need a new life to get over...
I really need a new life to get over my...
I really need a new life to get over my old...
I really need a new life to get over my old life...

And obviously I am too bored...haha...
Well, guess I better get back to Singapore before I being mummified by myself...
no need wait ppl fetch me out onli can go shopping...
haha....singapore bus alot wor....

hmmmm...i guess i need new friends as well~~~ ^^

好久没写部落格了，离我上个文章已经是半年前。。。
这半年，感觉过得好慢。。。
好多事情发生，让我看清世界，认清现实。。。
有人走出，走进我的世界。。
让我变得更假。。
还真的要“感谢”你啊！！

烂人！笨蛋！吃大便！！！

well....i'm done wif this semester..
we went bugis after our las paper and i bought so little stuff....aih....

me busy writing our lucky draw form...




after that, we plan to go zuok mambo ladies night...
hmmm...
after long hours of preparing...
here we go... ^^


when v enter....it is so damn alot ppl....
well...5of us girls at dancing floor n guys went get their drinks....
n out of sudden we get 'circled' by another bunch of guys...
wa...so damn paise...stranger guys shaking behind u...
omg...weird...haha...den we totally ignored them...muahaha...
plus me n tze din drink anythg n we dun hav any drink in zuok...
so we totally so called down...sob....
not high enough...haha....
so after awhile...d song is so chui den we decided to gO another side of the club...
n we form train line to get out...1 after another...
tis is d time i get uh hum 1st time...
OMG!!!!!!!!!! a guy grab my waist....juz let his hand slide away as i walk...
crap...kena makan taufu... n d guy is quite good looking...
guys...reali...eesh....

so we gO to d mambo dancing floor...
well...is kind of boring as u gonna follow the dancers of the steps..
and each n every words hav an action...
so damn fast...

we change dancing floor again n again...lolx...
n once again kena eat tauhu....
aih....pity me...sob...
tis guy touch my butt..#!@#!R$#@$!
sumore is rotate in circle...shit....
while we walked out again...
shit him....

but we did enjoy abit la...haha...
song not high enough....
n we keep pushed to 1side...
kesian....old ppl at d corner...haha....

group picture...




me tze and yean...wondering where i am looking at...haha..


girls of d night...


din take much of photos...my camera dies on me n no1 have any backup....
till then...tml start working...earn abit little...aiks...
juz hope can have nice experience....good luck!!

knock knock....
start getting busy from now all da way till dec....
exams one after another....
project still pending....
aih....
sumtimes wonder y v study so sanfu.....
end up work diff thing with wad v study...
aiks....

lately wanna dress nicely....
but...sigh....whole stack of clothes there....cant even find my skirt d other day...
it's hard to take 1shirt out also....
oh...do i mention about my wardrobe grow mold??
sumore is ikea wardrobe....=.=
aih....3 same wardrobe affected at once...
so my wardrobe apparently stayed in living room almost for 3weeks d....
n ikea ppl is coming to change d wood tml....
with charge sumore....aih...suey....
hope everything will be fine after tml....
no mold anymore....amitabha....

lately din reali camwhore which i used to be....
y?? the reason is pretty ridiculous....lolx...
i have to say my new HTC phone is not camwhore friendly...
where i need to press d center button in front to take pic...
n it is not stable to hold my phone like tat....
where hav to make sure my hand wont touch d screen also...
aih....bt....i got a big mirror in my hse...haha....
when ppl not around, i secretly go n take my own pic....
so kesian right.....

my hair faster grow la....longer longer....fringe too short n i look like sa po...


big big big mirrror....

又是一年一度的sports day...
我们带着雪耻去年的落败，迟到地搭的士去PGP...
队名叫orange bomber，mr sean 取的 “可爱” 的名字...
只因我们制服是橙色...哈哈...

一到，就看到熟悉的面孔。。。
第一场，对NTU。。。
我mark着一个跟我一样小只的女生，只看我把她mark得死死的。。。
她也没什么碰到球，同时我也没动到球~~~
忽然觉得自己好衰。。。
就这样，我们赢了第一场。。。

太阳越来越晒，要把大家给烧死了。。。
第二场，还没比，就知道应该是输。。。哈哈。。。
又是NTU另一队。。。
只有两个女生的我们，又上场了。。。
果然输了，而且还被铲得很厉害。。。

就这样，午餐时间。。。
过后，又看到了你。。。
看着一样的球赛。。。

过后，又险胜一队，进了半决赛。。。
就在这一场，我竟然被撞上了。。。
而且还是队友~~~
哈哈。。。肩膀对下巴。。。
你觉得是谁输了？？ >.<

就这样，负伤对自己母校的朋友。。。
还算朋友吧？失联的朋友。。。
本来打得好好的，知道不可能会赢。。。
忽然听到一句，不要拉人可以不可以！！！
什么跟什么。。。
球赛你能避免不拉人么？？？
想回中学，简直是垃圾。。。

后来，final...
远远又看到了你，不知你在看哪儿。。。
哈哈，你的背包，用到现在还没烂~~~
哇哈哈！！！

最后，NTU又赢了。。。赢得好。。。
哇哈哈，我们也默默的离开。。。

你也该被列入失联不说话的朋友吧。。。
再见啦，老朋友~~~

送上傻婆照一张，呵呵...

俗话说得好： 相见容易，相处难。。。
这句话真的应对了我现在的处境。。。

话说，当时要搬出来的时候。。。
你忽然说你只能住最多半年，因为你姐要买房子，叫我找人顶你后半年。。因为房租都是至少一年。。
而且那时已是非常时期，你叫我上哪儿找人？！
我姐可能会来新国做工没错，但如果她不出来勒？

到后来，他们决定抛弃我和你。。。
你就说，你住你姐那儿。。。
好，我就自己找房间。。。

当我去了美国，老妈告诉说大家又要回我们了。。。
妈做了退让，说你半年搬出去，我一个人要了整件房。。。
当时没感觉，现在回想自己好像玩具，要就要，不要就丢。。。

当我从美国回来，搬进新屋。。。
你也用了唯一的橱，擅自开了我的风扇，晒衣架，扫把，拖地。。。
我也没说一句。。。心想：哦！没帮忙搬家，也就算了~~

后来我又问你：你最多住多久？
你回说：一年吧，我姐可能没买屋子了。。。

那天，璁儿问说：你姐12月真的回来？
我就说：大多数咯。。。
你则问：她睡哪？
我：我们房间，我的床旁边。。。
你：都没有位，我们房间很小咯，晚上睡觉很‘kuk'喔。。。
我：。。。
你：还是叫你姐半年后再出来找工啦。。。那时你也搬出去了。。。
我：。。。
我真的无言，你好自私，一时一样，当时说半年，叫我找人。。。
现在说一年，而且还叫我姐迟点再出来？？！！

昨天，全部的人的橱都长了霉菌。。。
你也自告奋勇帮了忙，我也在气头上砸到了你。。。
到今天，老妈叫我去投诉，买了才1个月多的橱，这么快就不能用？
打了电话，告诉大家那人迟点回来看，然后看怎样。。。
其中两个人就说：来看了又怎样，你都抹干净了。。。
心想：不珍惜就算了，干嘛还泼冷水。。。

刚才，我跟你说：我的橱可能要放到窗口旁，不会这么潮湿。。。
你竟说：你的橱放那，这么大，挡住太阳，整个房间就没太阳进来了。。。
心又想：平时你都没几何把窗帘拉上，太阳进来没，有关系吗？
我：都没地方放了。。
你：不是放哪儿都会生的吗?
我又无言了。。。

心中的不满越堆越高，大家还能坦诚相待吗？
我可以摊牌吗？我，我，我。。。

好朋友，这三个字对我真的太虚幻了。。。
大家果然每天带着面具待人，很遗憾的是我也是其中一员。。。

human can be so damn selfish...
even ur own frien...
after a gross lecture in forensic science...
the prof ended his lecture with a video...
true video regarding recent case....
a man who believe is drunk and fell on d night of his wedding....
cctv capture his fall tat he bounce after he hit d road...
n lied there....d ppl juz standing few metres away....
walk here n there....bt no1 dare to walk near him...
1 even worst get on his cab and drove away....
i noe is human's nature when sum1 fell right in front of u n u're suddenly got frightened...
bt still...feel kesian.....

yet....after our bus trip back home...
we gonna walk pass through few blocks of HDB onli reach ours....
half way, i met a frien and i stop awhile and chat wif him....
and guess wad....
when we finished and say bye bye, my friens all walk back by themselves and left me there....
wad da helll.....which pissed me off is even my roomate whom i believed is my best frien did not wait for me...
not even around d corner or wad....dey like having walking competition c who reach d hse d fastest...
n d guys is selfish hu leave me there....

Singapore is a safe place ma....wad to scared....
ya true....bt still doesn't mean no crime....
n u all r my friens....won't u worried about each others safety...
which i think is wrong thinking i hav after tis incident....







sumore....i wan sumthg from u den knot.....u wan my stuff den ok....
wad da hell...
juz now in supermarket sumore ask me buy stuff 4dem 2play poker....
hello....i'm not tat dumb ok......

eesh....sumore he duno own self quality kip criticize about others....
hey...wad r u man....
wad's ur qualification to say ppl when u're not good also.....
hate such ppl hu say only....
say say say....eat shit la....

i tel u dun mess up with me....1day when u're dead u also duno wad happened!!!

今天吃饭时，璁儿问了个问题。。
佩瑜，你的快乐泉源来自哪里？？
我想了想，顿了顿，再想了想。。。
快乐？？回想上回真正快乐的时候是几时。。。
在美国旅行的时候？跟家人团聚的时候？
朋友呢？和朋友一起快乐吗？？
坐在那儿，一直回想。。。
好像没有真正快乐。。。
又想回中学的一切。。。仿佛又回到了以前。。。
那无知的我。。。傻傻的我。。。
呵呵，不知可笑或可悲。。。哇哈哈~~~

想着想着，又想到爸爸说的为何要让别人主宰自己的情绪，未来。。。
但以前就让它过去，现在与未来才是最重要。。。

快乐~~~让我从现在开始找寻你吧！！！

tis morning, i wake up since 9am....



wait n wait n wait.....



sleep back again n wake up.....



finally my NEW frien arrived....



after so many days of waiting....



tada.....my 1st ever smart phone....HTC wildfire~~~

自从从美国回来后，自以为觉得自己有些变化。。
会变得平易近人，跟别人无所不谈。。。
但是，忽然发觉原来我还是那个我。。。
当被忽略，还是会不爽。。。
当别人不理我说的话，自己讲自己的，还是会不爽。。。
现在跟大家说话感觉有点怪怪的，生疏了吗？？

msn 放的status，我都问怎么回事。。
关心下，了解下。。。
怎知个个都没回。。
当面问的，就说没事，随便写写的。。。
什么屁嘛。。
随便写的。。难道你太得空吗？？
当然是当下把自己的想法写下去。。。
不要讲就讲不要讲啦。。。
干吗要骗说随便写写。。。
当下，就静下来，自己看自己的戏。。
是我多事。。
你不信任，不要惹我。。不要让我看到任何东西。。。
不要写一半，又不讲。。。
算了，自己顾自己。。。

wtf......realli...
so down.....
after knowing most of my frien kicked out to leave early...
cheating man...wher can like tat....wad the helll....
if knot afford so many ppl den dun hire so many ppl in d 1st place la....
now end ppl's contract juz to accommodate the new comers??!!!
wtf.... sumore all kena kicked is international student.....
although i hvn receive any letter yet....bt mayb i'll get it by 2day or wad...
now i'm so wanna leave with dem...at least can travel earlier....
so down...also...ytd i knot slp well after knowing sumthg....sigh...
mixed feelings....shit.....
kip visualising dem being 2gethter....
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......
dey both kena kicked...sure can travel together....
sigh....later boom den uh hum d....
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....wtf.....
now reali reali down...
ytd supper time 1 of my frien cried...
suddenly my heart drop into deep deep hole....
left 2more weeks onli.....
if reali knot negiotiate den sigh....
feel like crying these days....reali down....
any lawyer can help?? T.T
sumore our agent is like kip saying dey knot help....wtf la.....
now we are left alone and at d disadvantages side....